Kicking and Screaming

Michael Card is one of my favorite musicians.  He is truly a musical theologian!  His songs have ministered to me now for about 26 years when a good friend gave us the CD gift of "Present Reality".  A couple of days ago, I listened to yet another new song by Card (new to me; it's been out a while).  As I listened, I thought of many people I know who persist in unbelief.  However, as I listened to it again after several times, I realized that I, too, am at fault for behaving in the same way.  And I'm talking about in my Christian walk!  You know what I mean?  Those times we go through worrying, unfaithful, angry at God for unanswered prayer.  Well, the list goes on but you make the application however you want.  Here are the lyrics: (Oh, and if you want to listen, go to youtube: "I Will Not Walk Away From You")

I made the Man of Sorrows sorry by all my foolish lies.  I drove the nails, I raised the cross; I was the reason that He died.  Utterly unfaithful then, I added anger to my sin.  In a world already dark to me, I closed my eyes and would not see.  So I may kick and I may scream, say many things I do not mean.  Hold blindly to what is not true but I will not walk away from You.

 Just why I choose to disobey, I simply cannot tell.  Why I blame You when I rebel and weep for wounds I give myself.  Then screaming at an empty sky, I search for You and wonder why.  Though I cause you so much agony, You refuse to walk away from me.

 Don’t read me pointless poems, friend, don’t diagnose, don’t condescend.  Though you may be right to disagree, I need someone to weep with me.   

I made the Man of Sorrows sorry by all my foolish lies.  I drove the nails, I raised the cross; I was the reason that He died.  So, I may kick and I may scream, say many things I do not mean.  Hold blindly to what is not true but I will not walk away from You.